2012 Recap

Wednesday, January 2, 2013 |



2012. How do I even start? A year, 12 months, 366 days. Every second of it molded me into the person I am today. There were times I wished I did better, times I regret, and times I wished had just been longer.


2012 started off great. I got my first iPhone 4s, which by that time was just released in Malaysia for a few weeks.




2012. I rushed to complete my final project, had a great MAD showcase and finished it with flying colors. We had no idea then, but it was actually our last good bye as we all went on our separate ways.






2012. I once again stepped on the land of England that I left 15 years ago. This time to visit my sister at Cardiff.




2012. I graduated from Segi College with a Diploma and a Best Student Award. 2 and a half years of hard work finally paid off.




2012. I turned 21. The birthday wasn't as glamorous as I wished it would be, but it actually couldn't have gone any better. I had my closest friends, my family and all the love I could get in the world. What more could a girl ask for?





2012. I got to an age where I could no longer act foolish and still remain a kid. True I would always remain a kid in heart, but as I grew older that kid gets smaller and smaller. Responsibilities came with maturity, and I already understood that since many years ago. I had to take charge of my own life from now on.



2012. I valued friendship more than anything. At certain points of your life you turn around and realize just how many people are standing behind you, being there for you at the lowest points of your life. They might not show it often, they might not even say it out in words, but when you need them, they're right by your side in a heartbeat.

I love them so much I don't even know how to express it.  Seriously I cannot imagine a life without them.







2012. I left my beloved country and flew off to a foreign country all by myself. I had no family and friends, and I knew no one. Sometimes I wonder where did I get the courage and strength to do such a thing. The 2009 wouldn't have done it. The 2010 me might have. The 2011 was still undecided, but the 2012 me was certain.

I had my struggles I had my worries, but it was the only opportunity I could ever get, and I wasn't about to let go of it and regret for the rest of my life. I always knew coming to Newcastle, UK would be a tipping point in my life. Three months here, and it already is.








2012. I tried my best to fit in. I tried my best to get use to all the new stuff. I tried my best to start over again. Everything fascinated me. Everything was a challenge and a reward at the same time.






2012. I grew up more than I ever did. I started to see things in life that I had never noticed before. My thoughts and belief changed as I went through the darkest moments of my life. There were times where I actually started to doubt myself, losing all confidence and faith I had in myself.




2012. I saw the light that would lead me to a newer, better me. I came through the low points and saw what I was capable of achieving. I saw my strengths and my weaknesses. I saw my good and my bad. I saw myself at the lowest, and I knew I could see myself at my best. And finally, I could believe again. I lost that bright smile, but I got it back.



2012. I chopped off my long hair just to make a statement. I did stuff I would never had done before. I became more outgoing, more social, less shy. I mingled with anyone and everyone, I smiled even when I had nothing to smile about.




2012. You gave me the strength, the power, the faith and the confidence to believe again. You made me feel like I've never felt before. You made me thank each and every one of my lucky star I am where I am now. This time, I could see far ahead.


2012. If you ask me, I really think this year was a challenge that god gave me, to see how far I could get. It didn't go smooth and it didn't go well, but looking back, everything seemed to happen for a reason. I love what I have learned, I love what I have gained, and most importantly I love what I have become.


Thank you to everyone who were at some point part of my 2012, you guys are what made my year.
Thank you to my three gang of wonderful friends, who I simply couldn't live without.
Thank you to my University gang, who I have spent the most festive days with, and who made these days not so lonely.
Thank you to the oppa, who stays by my side even though I ask you to go away almost once everyday. 
Thank you to my dear family far away at Malaysia, who let me feel safe knowing I will always have a home to go back to.
Thank you for this amazing year.


2012 was great, but I really hope 2013 will be better.


To a great year ahead!  *raises glass*



Happy New Year,
Shanay




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