就是

Friday, July 30, 2010 |


24/7online就是搞自闭 

看漫画就是宅女 

不出门就是没人缘
跟一个人好就是喜欢他 

做些别人不做的事就是奇怪 

成绩好就是死读书生活没乐趣 

老师的孩子就是乖乖好孩子

读art读design 就是成绩不好

不说话就是"串" "lc"

不用名牌就是没有品位

吃饭叫最便宜的食物就是小家子气

 几十sen都要算就是爱钱吝啬

化浓妆就是卸妆丑到爆

尽力做好一件事就是死要面子

专心在自己的事上就是自私不帮助别人

慢热就是难以接近难以相处


好多好多的就是
可是
那些‘就是’的人真的是那样吗? 
确定吗?


好多好多的就是
我就活在这好多好多的就是当中
有些或许是真的 有些或许根本无中生有
可是就是已经深深地烙印着
我的一生已经注定要在担心着这一切的就是而活
别人对我的定义
根本就是我人生的主要考量
活在一句又一句的话下
哪天被压死了都不知道为什么


好想说
我不是
可是 说了也是白说
定义早就形成了


我自己就是我自己
可是
我没办法做真正的自己



Don't assume anything about me. That's my job, not yours.


19th Birthday Celebration Part 2

Monday, July 26, 2010 |



16/7/2010, Friday

Mid-term break started! Finished everything we were supposed to do....and it was holiday!!!


First stop was Sunway Pyramid's Red Box for a sing k session. To all of our surprise, we got a HUGE room with 2 television screens and a small mini stage!


Imagine how big it was!


Had lots of fun there, there was enough space for us to shout, scream, jump up and down, and do anything we wanted! 


showing my legs...haha


All photos were taken without the acknowledge of Zac. Hilarious!



The birthday cake for the birthday gal, Shanz! Last year we were doing the same thing at a KTV room too.... =) 


Her present and the cakes~


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Straight after that we went for Shabu Shabu at Bandar Puteri, Puchong.



My own steamboat pot


All I remember was eating, eating and eating. 


And also mumbling "I'm so freaking full" while continuously stuffing food into my mouth. Why waste the money? xD


Then we went back to Subang to wait for some person who just had to go to his badminton practice. And those few hours were spent basically talking and listening. The last time we talked so much was like ages ago.  Genting perhaps? 


At around 1am, finally we could depart to our final destination - Kajang. Driving in a huge rain and at such a time was really very scary. >< 


And we continued talking where we stopped at Shanz's house. Talking is just what we do best!  It was almost 5am when we finally slept.  No idea why, but Zac, Sook, Shanz and me are always the people who stay awake the latest.


Thanks the Ong family for treating us so nice that night, and the morning after! Really enjoyed everything!  <3 my college gang! 





Trying hard to post this properly...
Shanay


 Photos : My FB Album : 19th Birthday  
              Shanz FB1st 19th celebration^^

Read about the same event at other's blog :  Shanz 


19th Birthday Celebration Part 1

Friday, July 23, 2010 |

Been postponing this for long enough...


15/7/2010, Thursday


Yup, the actual day of my 19th birthday.


My college gang had set up a small *surprise* celebration for me, but unfortunately some truth came out before they could stop it.


And it also came out just how many stuff they had lied to me all along. There were so many flaws in that lie I had no idea why I didn't guess it!



My birthday cake... Thanks Shanz and Wailing for going through all the trouble to get it! 


My college gang (Syeli and Carmen missing >< )


Thanks to all of you for going through all the trouble! I love the gifts (some I suppose not, but still =.=) and it really surprised me! Yeah you guys got what you aimed for. =) 


And for the first time ever I cried when I got a present. Kinda embarrassing to admit, but I seriously did.


Love you all!  <3


After finishing class I stayed around to print some stuff, which took longer than I expected. Not everyone spends their birthday fussing over some transparency printing, like me. Special it may be...


Then I had to rush back home through all the traffic, cause Mark and Ella were waiting for me at Mines. Blame the traffic for causing me to reach at almost 7pm!! 


And what I saw at the same time I saw time was really shocking. I didn't really expect much from them, because...erm...we've been through too many birthdays together to care much, honestly. 


Guess what I saw? 



19 Big Apple Donuts! With candles lighted and all! 




Really surprising! 


A small disappointment that Yaw and Wai Yan and Kai Wei couldn't be there though.... 


Thank you Mark for getting all those donuts and carrying it all around, which would look very stupid, I'm sure. Thanks Ella for showing up too! It must have been like a few months since we last met, and I was so happy that you came! 


And it's good to know my own friends haven't forgotten me...


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There was one more cake waiting for me when I got home.


My mum takes the initiative to buy a cake for us every year during our birthdays, and it's became some sort of tradition. 


However I've noticed the reluctant of singing the birthday song increasing throughout the years. LOL. 





Have I mentioned I love cakes? Eating cakes makes me happy. =)


Thanks to my family for the cake and the presents! Tan Xiang Zhi you still owe me a laptop cooler though, and I know you're reading this!


Seriously this is the busiest birthday I've ever had. But rushing around here and there was some kind of happiness also. 


19 is turning out great! =) 



Cakes and Donuts make me super FAT,
Shanay


p/s Next post:  Formal birthday celebration for me and Shanz(who's birthday is on the 18th, 3 days from mine)!! Blog posts coming up 1 by 1!!!

Happy Birthday Shanz

Sunday, July 18, 2010 |

一个人闯进这个世界 
曾经害怕曾经孤单曾经想后退
一直以为不属于这个地方
直到遇见你们
一切都改变

一群人的快乐
一群人的悲伤
一群人的生气
也一群人的煎熬


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It's 18th of July today...and it's Shanz's 19th birthday!


Happy Birthday Shanz!


We had our celebrations on Friday and Saturday already... so today was a more normal day. 


We were friends from the start. Since I first came to Segi College, I'd knew you before classes barely started. 


And among our gang, you and I have the longest history to talk about. 


I've lost count of just how many times we could start a topic and go on about it through out our whole journey home... In so many ways we were so similar. 


And I've learned so much from you, small facts that you may not have noticed, tiny informations that I've never ever knew before, and most importantly, my driving skills. I've always said that watching you drive was better than any of the driving lessons I've ever had. 


You're always the one that is okay with everything, but when you have opinions, we know for sure it's serious, and we take it serious too....


Knowing that I've spent the most time with you, means that I might have offended you the most too. Sorry for anything I've ever done, and thank you for all the things you ever did. 


Happy 19th Birthday. I suppose we still have a lot more years ahead of us to celebrate our birthdays together. =)

这条路
有人跌倒就有人扶
有人烦恼就有人顾
有人伤心大家抱着一起哭

区区谢谢已经不足
抱歉还没说就已有宽恕
和你们一起走在这条路
就是我最大的幸福 

Nine-teen



This should have been out two days ago, but I've just been too busy!!!


Till now only do I have the time to sit down and take a rest. Phew~


Anyway.......



On 15/7/2010 I officially turned 19.



Happy Birthday to myself.


Last year of my teen years. After that there'll be no more twenty-teen, it'll be a whole different world.


And I miss being young. There were always just that much you could blame on a teenager. There were always just that much responsibility you could place on their shoulders. That much, and not more.


This year's birthday was comparatively VERY BUSY. I don't think I've ever had such a busy birthday. I barely had time to online since Wednesday night!!! And for all those who know me, you all should know I'm a crazy internet-holic that can't survive without being online.


Happy Birthday to myself.


19 will be a change.


I'll amaze some people, surprise them, even make them regret they passed by without a glance. That's just how much I will change.


I'm taking control of my own life for now. It's my life and mine to decide.


My birthday wish?


First one was that everyone around me, both friends or family, could stay safe and healthy. Second one was that all things could go smoothly for me and lessen my worries. Last one, of course is a secret to be kept in. Teehee.


Happy Birthday to myself. Welcome to the last year being a teenager.


20-1 = 19,
Shanay

p.s Birthday Celebrations post due soon. As soon as I get all the photos. =) Stay tuned~

Counting down...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010 |

About an hour more to go.....and I'll be leaving 18 forever.


It feels so weird to be stepping into the last year of my teens. Somehow since I left secondary school I've felt like I'm always 17.


Sooner or later I'll be starting to worry about wrinkles and my career and those kinds of stuff.


18 going 19. Doesn't sound like a big deal. Won't be either.


As long as we're all together, any thing, any place, any gift is fine.


I should start thinking about what to wish for during the 'blow-candle' ceremony! =)



Soon-to-be 19 year old gal,
Shanay

Hopes

Thursday, July 8, 2010 |

The dummest thing I did last year, was writing out a wish list for my birthday.My whole list.


And in the end, I got nothing from the list. Not even one. Isn't that just plain dumb?


Last year's birthday was disappointing. It was just as normal as any normal day could be. 18 was a very important number to me, but I guess it wasn't so important to everybody else. Especially those who should have took it serious.


This year's birthday is going to be 1 normal day too. One day before semester term break, one day before most of our assignments due date, one whole assignment due on that exact day. I'm not sure even me myself will be able to put my attention elsewhere.


And with my gals all scattered around different places of this huge city, who else will be there for me?  


Celebrations can be anytime anywhere, but to me, the exact date is the most important of them all.


I don't keep my hopes up anymore, because the disappointment can kill me.


Sometimes what you do to people, won't necessary be the same as what people do to you. There is never an equal.



I don't regret putting so much effort for you all, but I just hope I'd get some back in return.


One week countdown to my birthday. Happy Birthday myself.


Almost 1 year older,
Shanay.

MSN chatting style

Monday, July 5, 2010 |

I have 192 contacts in my MSN messenger list, but yet the number of people I actually chat with, either occasionally or frequently, are less than 20.


20/192 x 100% = 10.4% 


Yeah I only chat with 10.4% of my MSN friends list. Pathetic. Gotta admit though, I'm a social loner, and I hate being in a situation where there's an awkward silence. So it's better if I just stick with those few people I chat frequently.


But I'm not gonna talk about that today (which can be left for another blog post).


If you're someone who's been on MSN for like ages, you'd notice everyone has their own style in MSN chatting.


It's just like everyone has their own style when chatting in real life. But sometimes, chatting in MSN and chatting in real life, with the same exact person..... isn't exactly the same. 


Ever met someone you could chat for non-stop on MSN, but yet when you see each other you both keep quiet?


Or make it vice versa. You and your best friend can talk till the sky falls down and still not notice it, but when coming to MSN, only a simple few sentences and the conversation box is closed.


That happens to me. A lot.


And I always wondered where the problem was. The change of language? The use of words? The lack of topic?


But I've always thought talking face to face is so much more important than chatting in the virtual cyber world.


Anyway back to the style thing. Everyone has their own way of chatting in MSN.


Some tend to type everything in before finally willing to press their ENTER key, while some love the ENTER key so much they keep on pressing it, resulting into their sentences being broken up into like, 7 rows, with only a few words in each rows.


Some play a lot with MSN emoticons, and some of the extreme annoy people by setting a lot of alphabets emoticons, or emoticons that take over a certain word, causing the whole chat box to be full of black border squares that are loading all kinds of emoticons; while some keep to the original, with the least amount of symbols as possible.


Some type rojak English, some type Chinese, some use a lot of "lar" "mah" "bah" "geh" "leh", some stick with the proper English, some simplify their words into short-forms to an extend where the reader spends 15 minutes trying to 'break-code' 1 simple sentences. 


And often some people's style just doesn't suit yours. Or yours doesn't suit theirs. Chatting is impossible between the 2 of you.


Some people just aren't meant to be MSN close friends. Give it another shot in real life. But then, there are still people we just can't be friends with. Nothing personal, though. Blame karma or something like that.


It's 1:47am and I'm still ranting about MSN. Gah.


What's your MSN chatting style? =)


Off to bed, 
Shanay

Been there

Saturday, July 3, 2010 |

We've all been there. 

We've all went through those hardest times. 

But eventually we will come up again, and put everything behind. 

There is no one on this earth that you can't live without,

And being alone is always what you end up with.



I know it hurts, I know its sad. 

But the reality's in front of you, 

And you can't do anything other than accept.

Not hoping, we say,

but deep down we can't help but do the exact.

If it were a drug

We're clearly addicted with no cure at all. 




It's easier to say

harder to do. 

When it's time to let go 

eventually you will

For the meantime

just keep things as they are

and don't ask for more. 



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lol...this is my 200th post! =)
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