Happy 52th Birthday to Malaysia

Monday, August 31, 2009 |

Today is the 31st of August. 52 years ago,on this very same day, Tengku Abdul Rahman was yelling out the word "Merdeka", and it rang in every people's heart.

Today, 52 years later, no more "Merdeka" is heard around us. This day, is just as same as any other simple day, other than being a public holiday.
Even the newspaper's headline, has nothing to do with our National Day.

What is happening to Malaysia? H1N1 shouldn't be an excuse.

I opened the newspaper today and read the special National Day edition. One article caught my attention. It really really meant something to me.

Its an interview with an Malay actor. You might have seen him from the NTV7 show "Mr.Siao's Mandarin Class" or from the recent 15 Malaysia Movies - Meter" and "Healthy Paranoid"

Don't jus scroll through it. Read it.


我是馬來人

查哈敏是馬來人,他會說、會看、會寫中文。

他最喜歡的歌手叫張惠妹,他喜歡的演員是鞏俐和張國榮,他非常喜歡《霸王別姬》。他曾是寬柔獨中的學生,他的華文測驗都不錯,文言文考試曾獲得92分。


曾經,他以為自己是華人,他中學時干媽、朋友幾乎都是華人。他媽媽在家有空與就干媽等朋友打麻將,他父親曾是英國軍人,在香港住過一段日子,在家沒事就和兒子說廣東話。身為JB Boy的他從小喜歡看新加坡電視臺華語節目,仰慕范文芳、周初明等人,從小夢想參加才華洋溢出新秀,但開始發現,是咯,自己的膚色是不一樣的,可以參加么?


他有次忍不住問父母,為何送他到華校讀書,他媽媽說:你爸認為你沒有那么聰明,如果懂華語,至少可以在附近華人煤氣店幫uncle抬煤氣嚕.......氣得他幾乎吐血。


可是,他大學到瑪拉工藝大學深造時,他周圍幾乎都是馬來人,而且開始有種族認知上的沖擊。由于他曾經就讀獨中,與講師一般說英文,結果開始有同學諷刺他不是馬來人,或偽馬來人,讓他感到生氣也難過。

他在15malaysia短片《Meter》中,戲中凱里飾演的司機不屑他身為馬來人卻說英文時,他狂罵,說英文不代表不是馬來人,還用華語念出的口白:要我們學華語,我講華語又說我不是馬來人!這其實是他的心聲和控訴。


但他很慶幸他的家庭和教育背景讓他可樂觀面對這一切,也讓他學會尊重他人。他在寬容時,有次集會師生都要向孔子像做祭拜儀式,但是他自認身為回教徒不用參與這儀式,于是當所有學生跪拜的時候,他很屌地站著,他認為在紀律一向嚴厲的寬柔敢做這樣的事情是很威的事情。

他馬上被校長叫過來,他對校長說,除非父親指示他這樣做,不然他是不會向肖像跪拜的。于是,校長打電話給他父親,他父親親自來到學校了解情況後,出來告訴兒子:明天祭拜儀式的時候,你就跟著跪拜吧!


查哈敏深感不憤,他本來可以做英雄的呀!但是為何要他跪拜讓他丟臉?他父親告訴他,到每個不同文化的環境,就要學會尊重別人。只有尊重別人,他人才會尊重你。查哈敏父親在他16歲便去世了,但他永遠記得這教誨。


他現在是本地少數會說三語的馬來藝人,而他非常享受他受馬來及中華文化薰陶的思想,讓他更能夠吸納和包容他人。


問他是否有想過做回真正馬來化的馬來人時,他說:我 想,我非常幸運,我其實可以很馬來化時,因為我喜歡馬來傳統藝術及習俗,我在我生活上貫徹我的回教和馬來人的習俗生活。但我也喜歡中華文化和習俗,我非常 享受它帶給我豐富的生活和啟發,譬如清明節拜祖先飲水思源的精神就是我們馬來人沒有的習俗,當然,我也喜歡印度舞蹈及食物,我們家人其實也一起歡慶圣誕 節!


多元文化的背景是他一直感覺幸福的事。他說有一次到中國新疆取景,當他經過火焰山時,整個團隊只有他非常興奮地大喊大叫。其他人只當火焰山是一般風景區看待,只有他想起,那是他小時候讀過《西游記》的場景呀!他知道孫悟空、豬八戒、沙憎、唐三藏、牛魔王及鐵扇公主。那時,他是覺得非常幸福的。

當然,他坦承,穿梭在各族之間生活,其實也發現各族之間彼此的隔閡越來越大,彼此有 歧視,甚至有仇視。


他曾經與華人及印度人打成一片時,遭路過的馬來人以不屑的口吻諷刺他。他舅舅去世時,他非馬來人朋友前來慰問他,卻遭到周圍的一些親友質問為何讓非回教徒在現場?


他每回上德士開口說中文後,華裔德士總是如釋重負地向他說一大堆馬來人的壞話,也不憤馬來人所受到的特權,華人卻一直被欺負,但他每回下車會很理直氣壯地說:“Uncle,其實我是馬來人,但我從來沒有接受過政府的優惠和支助,我是用我的錢,我的實力進入大學,然后大學畢業!


是的,他讀瑪拉工藝大學時,他班上學生本有30人,但是畢業時卻只剩下6人。他為他一些同學不努力,或自動放棄家人典當土地、屋子給他深造的機會,說回去甘榜賣摩多而感到痛心。所以,他為自己的努力感到驕傲。


有次他侄女告訴他,有朋友叫她不要和白皮膚的人做朋友。他聽了很生氣,馬上跟侄女說,那白皮膚的人很好,你一定要和他做朋友。當他看到侄女和不同膚色的同學打成一片時,他非常得意!


參演15malaysia其實他有擔心他會失去馬來市場,現在看來他在華人市場確實比較受落,但是他要學習雅斯敏精神,只要是對的,就去做吧!


他相信會更多人會加入反種族主義的一群!


他受邀參與15malaysia時,他一聽到巫青團長凱里要和他對演,他第一的反應是:不要!但是導演告訴他,這也不正是他和凱里有機會交流的時候嗎?


后來,他答應和凱里對演,因為他想起要尊重每一個人想法的理念。他要學他敬愛的雅斯敏,用愛去尊重每個人,不分膚色及宗教地對待每個人。


所以,當有人問起他是什么人時,他會很直接地說,他是馬來西亞人。簡單明了。

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Looking from other's perspective, we can realize that there are still people out there that actually feel that we really are one Malaysia. No ketuanan Melayu, no forbiding wine and pork in places with 90% Malays, no special privileges and shortcuts to get in universities...

We will always have only ONE Malaysia, but when will we be able to live in Malaysia together

...as ONE?









"Merdeka!"

Cooking Day

Thursday, August 27, 2009 |

I'm Wai Ling's 背后的女人 XD


26-08-2009, Wednesday

Woke up early on my no-class-day and went to Segi. Why? Because our gang planned to go cook at Zac's house! At first I thought I was only going to drink the soup, but... well, just read on. =)

Fetched Zac and Carmen to Mydin to get some of the ingredients. Had a fuss about:
1. what we should buy,
2. what brand we should buy, and
3. how much we needed (which was a very very little amount)

Then...it was cooking time!

Fine, it was Zac and Carmen who did most of the cooking... But I helped peel and cut things also! Hmph! *hands at hips*

I assure you that I DID help out, even if the photos don't support this statement much. (Seemed more like I was photoing around while they got themselves busy. XD)

All the ingredients


No prob! Leave it to me!


Wizard-Zac


After 2 hours of hard work, we finally managed to produce a eat-able meal!

Behold the pleasantly delicious most wonderful meal by me, Carmen and Zac!


Dum-dum-dum-DUM~~



Kangkung + Spagethi + ABC Soup

Disappointed? It was the best we could make when we had so less ingredients and cookware. And food after hard work always taste better! It tasted even better than abalone!

Felicia, Wai Ling and Sook Sook came over around 1pm and finished up all the food, except for the soup. Carmen went home soon after, and we stuck around waiting for the Mass Com gang to show up.

Meanwhile, Sook Sook, Wai Ling and I got our noses into Zac's wardrobe. *evil smile*

And we had a fashion show! As boys! XD

S.H.E? No, we're H.I.M!

We kidnapped the pretty lady! Bad us XD

The Mass Com gang came over at 2pm. And they finished all the remaining soup! At least Alex did.

I went home at 2pm, but from what I heard, they went crazy soon after I left.

Really crazy.


And poor Fei Shan din get to drink the soup. >.<

Outing with Yaw and Mark

Sunday, August 23, 2009 |

22-08-2009, Saturday

The plan today was to go hiking at some hill at Bukit Serdang. Yaw wanted to go sing K, but Mark wanted to take some photos. So the-hardly-compromised solution was to go hiking.

I woke up at 7am. My eyes were barely opened. Took me and hour to finally crawl onto my car and move it.

The god was really on Yaw's side today. When we got to the entrance of the hill, it was packed with dogs! Big ones, small ones, tiny ones, FIERCE ones. Think 101 Dalmatians and you'll get an idea of what I mean.

That's why I turned the steering wheel and we were on our way to Bukit Jalil.

Mark and Nikon D60


Unlike me, Mark didn't really favor photoing real, moving people. She preferred flowers.


Yaw = Diameter of circle


OMG! She has the windmill in her hands!!!


We left before it started to rain. This time, Yaw managed to CONVINCE Mark into following her original plan: SING K!

Once again, we were on the road to IOI Mall. It was just 10 minutes journey from Bukit Jalil. Also my first time there since they built the new wing. I always had the thought that that paticular road would have some serious traffic jam all the time.

I'll just skip everything else cause I'm sure you all won't have interest in what songs we sang and what things we ate. *covers face and smile hysterically*

I got home at 4pm something. <--- An awful sentence to end my blog post. But, then again, who cares? Rite?

大事件之新聞報道

Saturday, August 22, 2009 |

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小傑的無名繼上一個戶口因被不明人士潛入而被迫關閉后,于今早決定重出江湖開創一個全新的無名小站戶口,并一同po上了逾百張的個人及團體棒棒堂的生活照,更開放右鍵任由粉絲存檔照片。

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一天之內相簿瀏覽人數破萬,連同什么都沒有的網志也累積了逾5千人氣,尤其可見藝人的人氣之高及粉絲人數之多。

對此,當事人廖俊傑在官網討論區發貼發表了個人意見,點擊-->http://forum.woo.com.tw/viewthread.php?tid=288965&extra=page%3D1

以上報道,小部分純屬記者夸大其詞,還請各位讀者多多包涵。

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哈哈
其實是不知道要怎么寫出這個消息
就好玩用新聞的方式來寫了


知道在看這個blog的人沒有人對這件事有興趣
我寫來是給自己看的
我自己也可以對著電腦screen干笑的


為什么?
因為我爽!


我就是喜歡廖俊傑
我就是喜歡棒棒堂
關你們屁事啊?

4 things I'd like Blogger to have

Thursday, August 20, 2009 |

1st thing : User being able to reply comments.

I'm sure Cbox is great and convinient and all, along with all the other chat boxes that we see around, but just leaving a message isn't the same as leaving a comment. As far as I've noticed, a lot of messages people leave in cbox has nothing to do with any blog post at all.

Do people with blogger don't like leaving comments? It certainly wasnt like that when I was using Wretch.

I'd rather you comment on my blog post than comment about how beautiful my background is-not that anyone has ever said that before.

And cbox is all small and tiny and hard to reply.

We should reply the people that comment on our blog, questions they asked, sharing some thoughts. Livejournal has this sort of facility too. Actually replying to THAT specific comment, not posting another comment to reply a lot of people at once.

It really will be more convenient that way.


2nd thing : Showing who visted your blog.


It's annoying sometimes. To not know who had been reading your blog. Maybe you'd like to return the favor and take a stroll around his or her blog too.

But some people use this to increase their blog viewers. But that's not a crime, right?


3rd thing : An blog based album. One that is a part of your blog.

Even msn space has one! Not that msn space sucks or anything (Even though it does sometimes..Oops, did I say that outloud?) Picasa? It's not even technically linked to blogger!

Its more like a store room for you to put in all those things temporarily,when you don't have any idea of where to put them, then totally forget about the things inside after sometime. THEN, when you want to find these things, you suddenly remember you HAD a store room, and still has one. So you rush back and get so delighted you found you thing you forget the store room again.

BAH.


4. Change the code or anything so that the picture that I upload will appear in the post where I want it to instead of appearing at the top of the post.

Don't you feel mad when you've type a long, nice, interesting, breath taking post, and decided to put some nice picture of yourself, maybe, or something else in it, when you upload your picture and find it appearing at the most top of your post!!

So you have to copy the picture and find back the place you wanted to place that photo, then paste it there. Nevertheless, this leaves a blank line at the top of your blog, and if you happen to have a picture at the top when you want to remove this blank line, your picture might accidentally get deleted when you make the wrong move.

Even if you drag the picture to where you want, it'll become complicated if there are more than 1 pictures. The pictures are like so heavy they don't want to move there butt. Or sometimes they're blind and go in the wrong direction you point them to.

I dunno if it's the pictures who are stupid or the system behind them.


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I'm 100% sure that if I email this as a feedback to Blogger/Google, it'll be ignored completely. They must be getting hundreds, maybe thousands of emails like these from all around the world everyday. Who would take notice of a email from an 18 year old girl that is from no company or anything that would catch their notice.

Even if I use all the polite words and language in the email, I'd still be 99.9% sure about that.

So I compared blogger to Wretch. No big deal. Wretch is totally popular in Taiwan. According to my brother, Google owns/brought all the other popular blog host sites.

It is the top visited site in Traditional Chinese languages and the second in Taiwan after Yahoo! Taiwan according to Alexa.

The domain wretch.cc attracted at least 4 million visitors annually by 2008 according to a Compete.com survey.

-from Wikipedia.com


Even Yahoo decided to cooperate with Wretch. Some day when I'm rich I'll make a blog host site for Malaysia, like Wretch is to Taiwan. Won't it feel great to know that most of the people using this site you're using right now are from the same country? No culture or language differences-well, mostly. But at least the same type of slang...?

Even though blogger is so much more efficient than wretch. And quicker. And easier. And no need of upgrade or VIP service.

Blogger would be almost perfect if they had the 4 things I mentioned above. ALMOST. Perfect to me, anyway. I know a lot of people that won't get satisfied so easily.

Let's just wait and see. =)

Humpty Dumpty

Monday, August 17, 2009 |

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses,
And all the king's men,
Couldn't put Humpty together again

I'd use this nursery rhyme to describe my current situation.


I might not be falling yet, but someday I will. And by then, no one will be able to put me together again. The wall is just too high.


No one is on the same wall as me. They might be sitting on their own walls, higher or lower, but it'll never be my wall.


I'm just so so so tired. Mentally.


Yaw asked me once when was the most happiest time of my life. I'd like to change my answer now.


A few weeks before now, the last week of July 2009 was the happiest time in my whole life.


I had all the freedom I could ever imagine in those short seven days. No planning before, no consequences-thinking, no worrying and thinking about what would happen.


One word and I could be out having a lunch with my friends. One thought and we could be on a car going to visit another friend. One simply idea and we'd have a whole new plan for the day.


One short week felt like a whole month to me.


I miss those days...


And I hate my days now.


Not that I don't like my course, that I don't love the things I'm learning.


It's just that there's always a burden behind my back, pressing me down and down every step move. The wall is just getting higher and higher.


Maybe some day the wall will reach it's end. I welcome that day.



Provided I haven't fallen off it yet.

Tea Talk

Saturday, August 15, 2009 |



Segi Tea Talk today!


But actually it was quite boring. I look back and wonder why I even wanted to go at all. Well, at least now I know that I won't be going to this event anymore.


Finally got my results after some time of waiting. CGPA 3.81.


A bit disappointed actually. I knew my Malaysian Studies could be better, but I guess our group presentation wasn't that good.


I'm gonna paste my results on the wall and look at it everyday! Just to remind me how hardworking I need to be. I can't risk losing my scholarship!!!! And the grade points all total up when I graduate!!! Even a simple C could pull down all the good grades!


Anyway, me and my sister and my dad went to Brickfields Asia College straight after we left from Segi. My sister will be-and is-going to study LAW there!


Its pricey. Especially the last year at England (Its a twinning program 2+1). RM100k just for the tuition fees! Not including the living needs and all.


I'd rather stay in Malaysia. I don't really like going overseas. Maybe its just me.


Brickfields straight away gave my sis their textbooks! So efficient! And they're so THICK and HEAVY.


I still can't believe my sister is actually going to study law. It's so not her.

cure to H1N1?

Friday, August 14, 2009 |


The subject of my dad's recent ( duh-for some time already) research : Tiger milk mushroom. The Malays call it Cendawan susu rimau; Chinese call it 虎乳灵芝, and it's rarely found in the jungle areas of Malaysia.

Used by many elder people in traditional medicine, this mushroom is believed to have more than 15 medicinal usages, as a treatment for fever, cough, asthma, breast cancer, food poisoning and even healing wounds.

If anyone has noticed, most of the people who died from H1N1 are mainly those that have respiratory system problems. Asthma, upper respiratory tract infection... All of them have connection to our lungs. According to some of the H1N1 patients, they suffered from breathing difficulties and chest pain.

That's why tiger milk mushroom may be a cure for this dangerous influenza. Maybe not a cure, but a precaution. It strengthens your body and allows enough time for the antibodies in your body to form and kill the viruses from within.

Does it has any side effects? Remember, its still just a MUSHROOM. It has no harm at all to our body. We eat mushrooms all the time, and have you ever heard of people dying from drinking mushroom soup?

Just think of it as a vitamin C pill. The love shaped one we used to eat when we were small tiny kids. We didn 't eat them just because we were sick, we ate them cause they aided our body in some way and another. I, personally, ate them as if they were sweets.

For now there is still no absolute cure for H1N1, why not just give it a try?

If anyone of your family has asthma and has a great possibility of getting highly exposed to this influenza, convince them to try this. Even though until now there aren't any experimental trials done on it to prove that it can actually cure H1N1, it might just so save their lives.

Don't fool around when it's about life and death.

Leave me a comment for more details or if you actually want to try it. =)

有鸡shape

Tuesday, August 11, 2009 |

Results came out today! So much earlier than expected. Was working at student service that time, and I wanted to go see it so much that I couldn't sit still on my chair.

Especially after Felicia sms-ed my results. All I can say is, today is so not my lucky day.

Thanks Zac for making up the whole "F=Full A" theory. I know you just wanted to make me feel better.

Had our first Drawing Fundamental Class at 3:30pm. Miss Bridget was cute but her sound was slightly soft. At least she seemed like she knew what she was doing in class, and her teaching methods were quite unique.

That's why we spent our first class going between 6th floor and 7th floor, searching for things to draw.

Model Pose


And we drew some organic shapes. To show that duplicating a shape is not so easy. You can see the slight difference between my two dittos.


Organic Shapes = 有鸡(机)shape

Class ended at 6:30pm! The traffic was so so so SO busy when me and Fei Shan got to Kinrara. Why does class have to end at such a late time? It's such a troublesome thing!

Hopefully the official results on Friday will be better than the one now. Keep all your fingers crossed for me! =)

New Semester!

Monday, August 10, 2009 |

My 3 weeks holiday is officially finished. No more sleeping till 11am anymore. No more facing the computer and refreshing the same web page again and again.

I was late for my first class because we got our timetable late. Turned out a lot of people were absent. And usually no classes were taught during the first week. Bah.

This sem's subjects seem hard. Photography again. And a HUGE amount of money is needed to buy the drawing materials. And I've only just started my first day of my 2nd sem. =.=

Now most of the classes start at 8:30am. And my latest class ends at 6:30pm. Just how the traffic will be by then, I can't imagine.

Results will only be out by Saturday. In front of our parents!!! The SEGi staff are so not efficient. 3 weeks holiday and they can't even settle the marks of one subject???

Working tomorrow. Haiz. Still can't find a suitable slot to fit my working time into my timetable. Things like this will just have to wait.

The good thing is.... I still have Wednesday off.

Wheee~

Basketball Competition

Sunday, August 9, 2009 |

Final : QM versus Pengawas

SPBT versus Pengawas

SPBT held a Basketball Competition between Lembaga this weekend. Me, being the noisy person I am, went to see it just for fun. And also, trying to spend my last two days of my holiday away from home.

It's been quite a long time since I saw a basketball match. Guys really look more attractive than usual when they're on the basketball court with the ball in their hands. XD

And there was a Sorakan Competition also. Even though only 4 groups took part, and some of them didn't take this thing seriously at all.

Pusat Sumber Sorakan Team

Well, at least SPBT is having activities like these. Compared to our year.

So the whole thing ended at around 2-3pm and QM won. No big surprise there. And the rain started to fall right after that. We are just so lucky. XD

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Mum bought the kitty that was temporarily staying in her SPBT room back home. As the cat mummy didn't show up anymore and the kitty was starving.

We bathed the kitty but its body was still covered by fleas. We went to Mines and bought a Flea medicine for it, but still there were fleas.

And the kitty was so small and thinny. All you could feel when you carried it was its bones. Poor kitty. It gulped all the kitty food we gave it immediately and "meow"ed for more.


Havent decided on its name yet. Any suggestions?

p/s Personally the kitty's eyes remind me of an elder. Like the ones you go see in a game when you need some very important information that's more than hundreds of years ago. *sweat*

I'm a LC person. Sure.

Friday, August 7, 2009 |

10:05pm XX : hi
10:08pm Shanay :hi
10:08pm XX : you 18y lod?
18y old?
10:11pm Shanay : yup (( Trying to be polite by replying))
10:12pm XX : you live k.l where?
10:15pm XX : ????? ((Bothering me when I don't reply))
10:17pm Shanay : i liv at selangor actually
10:18pm XX :oic
10:22pm XX : you can give me you handphone ma?
10:31pm XX : can ma?
10:33pm Shanay : er...soli
i dun giv ppl i duno my handphone no. de ((Still trying to be polite))
10:35pm XX : = =
nvm k.l gril oso lc de la
10:36pm Shanay : ? (( I really had no idea what XX meant that time. Gril made me think of bbq))
10:37pm XX: me say k.l ppl oso l.c de no give de la
10:37pm Shanay : u can say watever u wan
not giving other's their number isnt lc ((Ditch polite. Starting to get a bit mad))
10:38pm XX : ya la
me asd maleyu oso give for me la
10:38pm Shanay : har? ((Still no idea what he was talking about))
10:38pm XX : we same cina oso no give !!!!
10:38pm Shanay : =.= tis isnt about race bah ((Finally understanding he meant "melayu"))
10:39pm Shanay: its because I dun even noe u
10:39pm XX : at malaysia cina gril no gd
malayu gd
10:40pm Shanay : sure...then u go chat with malay girls bah
bye ((Closed the chatbox and quitted facebook))

This is what happens when I actually get in the mood to reply someone in Facebook chat.


Obviously, since I'm such a LC person, as the person above mentioned, I decided to post this up here so that EVERYONE could see just how a LC person I am.


I'm from Selangor and not KL, but since KL is IN Selangor, I'll prove that I'm not that lc by censoring the guy's name. I still have that bit of pityness for his family to save them from the shame of having such a person in their family.


Say whatever you want, but it won't change the fact that I hate chatting with people whose English I can barely understand, AND people who are stupid enough to say me lc when I don't give them my phone number and racist.


I truly regret actually replying the guy's "hi" in the first place. God please forgive me for making such a mistake to ruin my own day. It was so stupid of me.


If LC is not giving phone numbers to strangers...


I rather be, and always will be a LC person.

Least Calorie Meal

Thursday, August 6, 2009 |

I made this! Out of paper.


Hungry? Try this. XD

A lot of people are getting sick recently. Just brought my brother to see a doctor, and the clinic was full of people.

I'm at a high risk of H1N1 now! My dad came back from United States just recently.

Can drinking too much water kill me?

Story : Giving a Chance

Wednesday, August 5, 2009 |

This story is dedicated to fen. Hopefully its something you can relate to. =)
Just thought I'll write it out for fun.


<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3


When I first saw that photo, i was shocked. I really was. There was a strange tangling felling in the bottom of my heart, which skipped a beat at the same moment.

She wasn’t very pretty, but she wasn’t very ugly either. The only word I could use to describe her was ‘cute’, which was usually used when ‘pretty’ and ‘beautiful’ was out of the picture. She was the kind of girls that you’d see thousands of them on the street every day. If you’re not clever enough, you’d think they’d all look the same.

And there was something else…

I fell hopelessly for her. Don’t ask me the reason, for I have none, other than her so called-normal photo. I tried so many ways to try to approach her. I got her email; I knew where she lived, where she studied, her height, her weight… It’s amazing how much information the internet can provide you these days!

My attacks began. Yet her wall of defence was so strong. Weeks and weeks passed but we were still between the “ hi how are you?” and “fine thank you” part.

But hey, who said I was going to give up?


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“Da-dang”

I turned around to face my computer screen. The small msn guy was shining at the bottom of my screen… AGAIN!

Doesn’t this guy get bored? The first thing he does every morning is to IM me a ‘good morning, what are you doing?’ And even when I don’t reply him he’ll keep on telling me what he did today, what breakfast he had.

I really felt like asking him why he doesn’t have anything else better to do.

And the main reason I got his attention was because of that one photo! I have to admit that was one of the few photos that pictured me as a quite pretty, attractive girl, but don’t these people know that most things on the internet are so much different from the reality?

I simply can’t bear guys falling for me over my photos. It’s like a huge lie.

So I decided to ignore him, give him some cold attention, let him back off by himself.


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‘Please stop bothering me. I’m a busy person.’

That’s one of the least bad replies I got from her. It’s been a few months already, and she still treats me like a piece of shit. I’ve been nothing but kind to her!

I know she’s a kind girl. During those times I could actually get her to chat with me, in between the lines I could figure out that she was friendly and charming. But then it was like she had a double personality, and the wall of defence would come up again, higher than ever.

I’ve tried everything, I really have. Maybe we’re just not meant to be? I thought of this as I type my usual morning greeting on my keyboard and pressed “send”

‘Stop believing in what you see!! I’ll send u a photo of the real me. I’m not that pretty in real life. I’m just a normal, fat girl that has nothing that would get your attention. Don’t get fooled by me anymore!’

I clicked the word “accept”.


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I knew it!

There was no msn conversation box and no offline messages when I opened my computer. He wasn’t even online.

I just knew he’d lose interest in me after he saw the real me. Who wouldn’t? It was just a huge fake lie. Could he be regretting the whole amount of time he’d spent on me?

I shook the thoughts out of my head. This whole thing was over now. I was just back to my usual life.

I was about to shut down my computer when I suddenly noticed that I got a new mail. Must be the usual junk mail from various websites, I thought as I clicked it open. I had nothing else to do also, might as well read some junk to take my mind off everything that happened.

The mail…was from him.

Did it ever occur to you that the fact I was attracted to your photo wasn’t because of the girl inside? I admit I did give a second glance at the girl in the photo, but what really got my attention was your caption.

Do you remember what you wrote? “If music be the food of love, play on”. From Shakespeare's Twelfth Night. That’s what struck me. That’s why I tried so hard to get to know you, to understand you. One simple sentence and I knew you were so much different from the girls I see every day.

I know that you feel that no one would accept the real you. The ‘you’ that’s hidden behind all those photos. The ‘you’ that’s lost confidence in the real you. The ‘you’ that’s afraid what other people will think of the real you.

You might think so, but I will prove to you that you’re wrong.

Give me a chance, but at the same time, give yourself a chance.


I deleted the email immediately, followed by shutting down my computer.

I have something to do already: clear my mind from all these thoughts.


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No response at all from her. I waited the whole day but yet no response. Did I offend her? I reread my email. I might have sounded a bit busybody. And a bit demanding.

I typed my usual morning greeting. I’d said before, I wasn’t going to give up so easily.

“Da-dang”

I rushed back to my computer at the sound.

‘I just had my breakfast, boiled egg and some sausages. How about you?’

My lips formed a smile. I had a good feeling about this.


THE END

模范棒棒堂 正式退堂

Sunday, August 2, 2009 |

小傑不见了>.<

将近三年
录了763集的模范棒棒堂
终于都正式画下句点了


是免疫了吗?
还是大家都接受了总有一天会结束的事实
粉丝们的反应 相比去年9月底迪们毕业那次
平静了好多


没有上次的伤感
只有那些对以往记忆的不舍


没有范范堂主的模范棒棒堂
再做下去也没什么意思
这一点 大家心知肚明


只苦了阿杰和虎牙
三军才刚开始
就连唯一表现的节目都没有了


小傑 你未来的日子会怎样
接下去的发展会如何
傑迷们的担心都只能压抑在心中


结束的那集
正好落在7月30日


从我去年7月29日开始下载这套节目
准准一年的时间
巧合或是特意

每集全部都好好的burn进dvd了
想看的人可以和我拿哦



以后
上课之前就不会忙着开电脑开utorrent下载了
下课后不会赶回家对着电脑了
每天的这个惯例 就会消失了


看来 我需要一点时间
去适应这一切
适应没有模范棒棒堂的日子


一日棒棒堂
终身都是棒棒堂

Happy Birthday to Yaw

Saturday, August 1, 2009 |

fen and me

Its Yaw's 18th birthday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAW!

Went to green box this morning with yaw, wai yan, fen and mark. Hopefully yaw did cry when I gave her her present. LOL. Bathed at 12 midnight yesterday just to finish it.

Too bad we didn't get to take any photos today. We always seem to forget to take photos. =3=

I'm so tired now I dunno what to type already. My brain is malfunctioning.

Just wanna tell yaw thank you and sorry. For so so so SO many things. Friends forever ya. =)

Xiang
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